Holiday Memories

My family’s holiday was the same every year. On December 23 or 24th, we would drive from our home in Kenmore, N.Y., to spend Christmas Eve at my father’s parents’ house in Salamanca. This was in the early 1950s, and there were no superhighways; from Kenmore we drove into downtown Buffalo, where we picked up State Highway 62 for the trip south.

Being too young to read, I passed the time by looking out the window, probably kneeling on the back seat for a better view. The weather, as I remember it, was always gloomy. It was either snowing, and threatening to strand us, or dripping wet, with gray skies, black roads and dirty snow banks.

The only color in the trip was early on, as we drove through Lackawanna, a suburb of Buffalo that was home to Bethlehem Steel. There the gray and black of winter gave way to a shade of rusty orange which coated everything. I was used to green trees and houses in different colors. In Lackawanna, anything that held still – the mill, houses, cars, signs, snow banks – was the same orange, painted by the belching open hearths’ flue dust and airborne iron oxide. Even the sky was orange.

It was my first glimpse of air pollution and its effects, and I knew I didn’t want to live in Lackawanna, ever. But for me, there was something more frightening to come.

South on the two-lane road we traveled, through Hamburg, and as we approached Gowanda, there it was: the Gowanda State Hospital, the insane asylum. Dark, ominous, set back from the road. Not a soul was in sight, but within those dark walls lived 4,000 inmates under lock and key. I imagined them shackled, moaning, eyes wide, dressed in straightjackets or long gray robes. Santa Claus was the farthest thing from my mind when we drove through Gowanda.

To native Americans, “Gowanda” means “beautiful place among the hills,” but to me the word sounded like a cry echoing down a darkened hallway. The bridge over Cattaraugus Creek, a looming steel cage, was the next landmark, and no help at all.

Gowanda haunted me all the way to Salamanca. But a year later, I was glued to the car window for another long look.



  1. Nancy Caneen Roginski · · Reply

    Hi! I was born and raised in Gowanda and moved away in 1971 at age 14. Both my brothers and my father worked at the State Hospital at one time or another. When the movie “One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest” came out, each one of them said it was the best portrayal of a mental hospital ever put on film. Very accurate. Anyway, I’m sorry that the hospital freaked you out, but Gowanda was really a very nice place for a kid to grow up. I share your views of Lackawanna, however!

    1. Thank you so much for your comment, and for adding to the story. I’m always surprised and pleased to discover someone is reading my stuff.

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